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Sunday, October 16, 2005
sigh. looking back at the past month its been so filled with outings. i don't even remember my room. days at the library mugging for exams. and other things. late night on the phone. avoiding uncomfortable situations. i swear everything changed on Friday the 14th. i went for the retreat held in school. i have to add that i was awfully dreading to attend this miserable reteat as Friday was suppose to be a holiday for us. at the beginning of the retreat, the priest drilled this statement into our heads. "Don't leave this room with any regrets." it was then that so many people flooded through my mind. all those people that i have been at loggerheads with. and those of which i haven't spoken to in a long time. but that thought soon dropped out of my head cause i knew that what i was thinking was not going to be possible. coming to the end of the mission, we had to do this confession thingy and almost everyone in the room burst out crying. it was such a sad scene. i hugged (this is a list.) MY BESTIE:D TOAD: i know you were feeling like crap over what happened between you and your freinds but i just want you to know that even though we are not as close anymore, i'll always be here for you. oh and my best friend too! JAMIE. my one and only (yeah right.) YVELYN. I LOVE YOU! DEBORAH. she's not as weak as she looks, damn. she's such a nice hugger:) MARY. I love her plentys. MAY. she said such sweet things to me. i think i love her. SANDRA.DAN.JADE.LYDIA.SAM.VANESSA.NATS.JOYCE.KAREN.people whom i never thought i'll hug with so much warmth flooding through me. i even hugged chelsia: she apologised to me for God knows what.haha. its amazing how a hug can mean so much. here's the best part. blah blah and blah blah came up to me to apologise! when i hear their voice, i swear i almost fainted. i realised how much i missed them after they hugged me . no words can describe the happiness that overwhelmed me when they hugged me. i can't believe it. i miss them so, so much FORGET ALL THE SHIT THAT HAPPENED MAN. another great thing happened. i was sobbing like hell after hugging blah blah and blah blah caused i miss them so much when stace suddenly grabbed me from the side and hugged me and apologised. i almost died from sdock. but i was so happy and i really appreciated it. the she started crying and started talking about someone. i felt so bad for her. if only i could do something to make her feel better. sigh. all in all. i'm glad i went for the retreat. it changed my life for the better. although my heart is now broken. If I could I relive those days I know the one thing that would never change Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye Look at this photograph Everytime I do it makes me laugh Everytime I do it makes me (Your name here) wasted his/her time at 9:16 PM
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